Gaaah. I'm now at my cousin's crib. There is a bbq here. Hmm. I'm searching for my favourite cousins, yean&rai, but I don't see them anywhere. Probably they're going out with their friends to celebrate the new year. Aha.

I'm really bored now. Just listening to Elle being on the phone. Sunyi eh, buring ku. I should be out with my friends. Etto. Next year, I want to make a bbq at home, wanna celebrate next year's new year with a blast. Probably. Aha. I'm not sure yet though. It's still in the planning process. Aha.

So anyway, new year is gonna come soon. Will it be a new beginning for me? Should I throw out the old and bring in the new? Hmm. Lusa start skulah ni, Amy will begin her teaching career in Serasa Secondary School and Insya-Allah, she'll be doing her Masters; I'll be starting my upper six year, ah, the life of a senpai... XD; Elle will be at home, doing all the chores (haha!) except for cooking though, she's not reliable in that department (it's true); & abang, I don't know, still in ITB I think. Hehe. Well, that's what we siblings will be doing. (:

I'm hungry. Really hungry. I wanna eat but it can wait. Hehe.



P.S. I'm still not over you. (:

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Baby,top. || 9:01 PM

Woke up at 7.45 today. Just the right time. For me that is. Aha. Now, I'm waiting for Elle to finish with her shower. Amy is still upstairs, she's awake already though. I wonder what she's doing upstairs, probably cleaning up the bedroom.

It was her turn to be bitten by mosquitoes, I got my share of bites 2 nights ago. The damn insects had bitten my whole right arm, so I was scratching like mad when I woke up in the middle of the night. Damn those things.

So anyway, I'm thinking of what to eat for breakfast later. Maybe some wedges? Probably.

Oh. Elle's finished showering already. Be right back, in more than 20 minutes of course ;p

***

Back! That was really refreshing. I am now stuck in front of the television, watching 'Cruel Intentions'. Hmm. This movie is awesome in a way. Haha. Ryan Phillipe, who plays Sebastian, is so hot. The movie was filmed back in 1999, it's about a girl sworn to virginity till marriage ends up as a pawn in a dangerous game between a Casanova and a seductress.

I'll be signing off for now, wanna do some scavenger hunting in the kitchen. Hehe. Hungry bah ;p

Labels: me, movie review, random

Baby,top. || 9:30 AM

the essays are nearly finished. well, actually, the essay of the tragic hero is nearly finished. i find that ozymandias essay to be very ... hard. hmm. i don't really know how to start the essay, so i, uh, wrote the poem first. at least i wrote something, right? haha. ;p

so anyway, woke up around 8 today. pretty late for me though. i wanted to wake up around seven so i'd be able to do my work earlier and probably would have finish the tragic hero essay by then. but noo~ the tv got me distracted. especially when i watched csi from 12 pm till 3 pm. awesome (y) who can ever resist csi? it's one of my favourite tv programmes. so, must see on my to do list. haha.

in the afternoon, i had my lunch. mom cooked beef curry which is super hot. a hot curry is a good curry. the more hot the curry is the better. (y) i helped myself with seconds. haha. yes. i can eat alot though my body stays the same, which frustrates me sometimes. sigh.

moving on, i should be sleeping now cause it's late already. plus, me dad would be angry at me if i stayed up so late. yes. dad is very concern, especially if it effects my health. i love you dad (: mom too. although she may get on my nerves sometimes. hee.

so now, good night people. and sweet dreams.

i'm out-

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Baby,top. || 10:34 PM

"?!@/&%*$#"

"ajtgpdmwpjdamtgbkuhneqxcosifzvylr"

- this is how fucked up I get (:

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Baby,top. || 9:25 PM

I'm now sitting in the kitchen, waiting for the anugerah pelangi. Adakah inda ni -.-'

I really wanna watch it cause that particular person will be dancing for the anugerah pelangi. The award is held at JPCC. Live kah inda ni? Ngusut jua ku ni di dapur ah. Ee. If it is live it should be starting NOW! But no~ it's still the 8 o'clock news! Gah. -.- *goes mengusut in the corner*

oh, before you say anything, i'm not going anywhere tonite. Going down to Jerudong is way too far. Plus, I can't drive. Things would be different for me if I could drive. But no~ i'm too short! God, i hate being short! Too many disadvantages. Hmph. Why can't I be tall like everyone else?! Instead, i'm stuck in this 9 year old body! Argh!

By now, the readers would go, 'emo jua eh ia ani. Atupun.' ;p

I can be way over reacting, and way emotional. No wonder Elle and Amy call me emo -.-

i hate you.

I really hate you.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

*goes sulking in the corner*

I'll be signing off now.



P/s:
brunei is no fun~ haha. ;p
Baby,top. || 8:48 PM

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Baby,top. || 6:53 PM

Now I'm lying here, thinking about life, about things and about someone.

I wonder how I would turn out to be in the next few years. Will I be able to fulfill my hopes & my dreams that I have kept all my life? Will I be able to make more money? Money is important yknow. The things in life are so demanding. It never was enough to begin with. Hmm.

Now I'm thinking of tomorrow. I'll be getting a blood test. My dad wants me to do it. Just in case though, just in case. It's better to prevent things earlier. You never know what you'll get. Haa. What if, just what if, I have 'it' back in me? I don't want 'it' back though. But, there is a possibility. If 'it' is back, people would start to worry. I don't want them to worry. I mean, it's great when people care about you, but sometimes, all that pressure can be too much. I've been through that a hell lot of times already. It really drives me through the wall! So everyone, if I have 'it' back, I don't want you guys to worry, okay? Promise me. I'm not asking for too much here. (:

Thinking about that injection needle makes me wanna... God! Hmm. I'm over reacting again. Haa.

*listening to rihanna - cry*

My mind now switches to him. School's gonna start soon. By then, will these feelings disappear? I hope so. ('X It has been five fxcking whole months since we went our separate ways already. But, I'll love him always. It's not wrong right? Tell me if it is.

Starting next year, I wanna set my mind fully on my education, if I score, I'll be able to make more money in the future. Yes, more of the money-is-important fact. There may be one or two relationships or none at all. Haha. Hmm. I don't wanna think about this relationship matter. I never get this whole love thing. Or do I? (:

So now. I'll be signing off. I wanna continue doing my elite work, as soon as Elle's finished using the PC.

P/S:
if you're wondering what 'it' actually is, then I'll give you this clue, 'it' is an absence of red blood cells, so more to white blood cells in the body system. By now, you should have known what 'it' is. Have fun guessing. X)
Baby,top. || 9:10 PM

Updates! (:

Yesterday ;

The 25th of December commemorates the 11th anniversary of #40 Villa. In case you're wondering, #40 Villa is actually my house, my home. We've been living here since 1995. I can't believe we've lived here for 11 consecutive years. There were plenty of ups and downs but we all pull through in the end. For those of you who have been to my house already, you know that there's a huge tree planted in the yard right? Its age is 11 years old. Yes. That tree has been living with us since we moved here. Dad was the one who planted.

This date also happened to be Danial's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAN!! ;)

Okay, back to the present. Today ;

I woke up nearly to eight today, didn't go to tasek as I had planned. I haven't been to tasek for a while now, I miss that place. So anyway, after the shower, I went to do my literature homework. I have finished up to the seventh worksheet, nearly finished though, just a few bits of points to be inserted in worksheet 7. Tomorrow, I'll be completing the rest of the given worksheets & will be finishing on reading the Mayor of Casterbridge, just 9 short chapters left.

I'll be going to my secondary school tomorrow, just visiting it though. I miss that school, just the teachers actually. Haha. Apparently, my sister is assigned to teach there. So yeah, this would be interesting, in a way, sort of... -.-

After going there, probably go out shopping tarus, I asked Dad if we could just go buy the stationaries tomorrow saja. So far, I've got the green light for it. I even asked my Dad if I could get a new bag, what do you know? He agreed to buy me one. Hehehe. I'll be wanting a black bag, inda kira, mau warna itam jua. Haha. Majal tu. ;p

I'm watching this movie currently, it's called 'take the lead' and I find the movie to be very
i n t e r e s t i n g. . . Very sexy dance moves. *kirai. Now, it's the waltz dance, be right back, wanna watch it kajap.
***
Back! Hmm. I find the waltz to be a very romantic dance.

Anyway, it would be best if I go to sleep now. My eyes feel strained already by the computer screen. So, good night dear readers. Sorry if my post today is kinda boring. Don't really have the mood to post that much, this is due to some stupid reasons. (:

Good night-
Baby,top. || 10:11 PM

Savouring the smell of food being cooked in the kitchen by mother. I feel hungry. I just had some sausage bun a while ago, now I'm back to my hunger mode. I think I should be eating now, but mother has not finished cooking yet. Maybe I should go help her? Ah. Malas ee. Haha. I'll help her some other time. I don't want to go into the kitchen right now. Just wanna stay here and blog all day long. ;D

I still have those worksheets to figure out. I should be doing them today, I even set it to 'high priority' in my to-do list. Somehow, I'm avoiding those papers. I'm enjoying the book Amy lent me, it's called 'The Shadows of Christmas Past' by Susan Sizemore. Interesting stories. Gonna read it more later, I also have that novel to finish before the year ends. Then I got those stacks of paper lying about in the study room, all not being arranged according to subject. Need more bigger files. I'll do the shopping on Saturday. Yes, this Saturday. Gonna buy myself a brand new bag too, maybe, if dad permits me. Hehe.

All my things for 2008 will be black. Yes. No other colour but black. Except for my school uniform that is. Haha. I'll probably need to get some new pair of shoes, my old ones are worn out already, plus, sempit. I want those shoes for stomping! Yeah~ the one with those jagged base~ *goes stomping hard on the ground (die you filthy ants! die!)*

Next year, class will be at the upper most floor, the third floor (why God?! Why?? Why does it have to be so high up?!?). *goes all emo* HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH. But, if I put it this way, all my classes will be downstairs saja, the maths class, the literature class and the english class. Geo class will be just next door. Yeay! Haha. No more climbing up the stairs, except for in the mornings of course, for registrations. XD

Bah. Out dulu. Wanna have my lunch.

Later-
Baby,top. || 1:01 PM

woke up at around 7-ish today, didn't go to tasek with elle and amy. i was still sleepy. so anyways, had my shower at around 9.30 or so, cause i was watching harry potter on hbo and i got stuck watching it. before the shower, went to the living room and looked out of the sliding door for the little kitten. it was meowing again, mau more milk kali lagi. hmmm.

so after that, haven't had my shower yet cause dad was looking for the green ball, so kitty can play around with it. i help to go and search for it and at last, found it lying somewhere in the store room. gave the kitty the ball and she looks so adorable when she was playing with it. then dad gave her some milk, she gave me this longing look in her eyes, perhaps saying, "where's my milkie? i want my milkie." cute little thing.

then had my shower. finally. haha. after shower, more reading of the mayor of casterbridge. yeay~ the 35th chapter lagi. XD

went to do my chores after an endless hour of reading, karang bising lagi my mom, she'll be nagging if she saw the dishes not being washed when she got back home. hmph. nagging mother, but i love her all the same (:

at 2 o'clock, the whole family, except for my brother of course, went to nini's house in berakas. ada open house, sempena aidil adha. arrived there tapi macam nada urang saja. -_-''
it was so sunyi, just a couple of people were inside, so we thought salah hari kah apa kah. haha. went inside nini's house and kana suruh makan tarus ani bahhh. okay~ so we ate lah. spent an hour there. after arah nini's, went to gadong cause dad wanted to go to maybank.

after the bank, got back home and here i am. endless usage of the computer from 5 pm tadi. haha. but now, i feel tired and i want to go to sleep. the bed feels so comfy and then it would let me dream endlessly tonight. haa (:

good night people. sweet dreams tonight.
Baby,top. || 6:11 PM

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Baby,top. || 8:51 PM

1. Who's no. 1 on your top 6?
; no one.

2. What is your favorite possession?
; this half-broken necklace. ndang catu usulnya. the other half is with him. & no. I don't want it back. keep it. (:

3. Do you own a gun?
; mmm. nope. but i want one though.

4. If you could tell your ex something what would it be?
; haa. :x

5. Do you get scared before doctor appointments?
; nope. i always said to myself, there's nothing to be scared of.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
; you talking about sausages?

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
; none.

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
; coke/hot cocoa/hot milk

9. Can you do push ups?
; yes. if i try hard enough without even breaking my fragile bone. haha.

10. Is your bathroom clean?
; i think so.

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
; my necklace. that's all i needed.

12. Do you take painkillers?
; ooo. yes. i tend to over dose though but dad doesn't know that. ;D

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
; i do not know. i don't even know why some guys are attracted to me. haha. seriously.

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
; nope.

15. Whats your name?
; amal.

16. Middle Name?
; nada.

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
; him; a friend who's experiencing a complicated problem right now and also chocolate cakes.

18. What were you doing @ 12 AM last night?
; blogging thru my phone.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
; water, milk, coke.

20. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
; the sun and the day ahead of me. will it be interesting or dull as ever? haa.

21. Who was your first roommate?
; sisters.

22. What was your first alcoholic drink?
; nada.

23. What was your first job.
; being a sister and a daughter.

24. What is your favorite candy?
; mmm. orange mint mentos.

25. What is your favorite book?
; i got tonnes of 'em. :D

26. Who was the first person you called today?
; i don't call people unless it's urgent.

27. Who is the first person you thought of this morning?
; not surprisingly, him. i wonder what he's up to?

28. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
; kuala lumpur. for a surgery. (:

29. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?
; snuck out? one of these days imma gonna do that. wait till i have my bedroom on the ground floor. haha.

30. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
; them, im afraid we lost contact now.

31. Who was the first person you talked to this morning?
; sisters.

32. Whose wedding were you in the first time?
; uhm, sapa ah? one of my cousins. couldn't really remember who.

33. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
; watched the sun through the blinds.

34. What was the first concert you ever went to?
; uhm. none i think. i'm not really a concert person.

35. First tattoo or piercing?
; piercing? back when i was 8.

36. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
; can it be 'your guardian angel' by TRJA?

37. First crush?
; Hadilman. Aha. That was soooo long ago.

38. First TRUE love?
; the recent ex. yes. it's true. (:

39. When was your first detention?
; imma good girl (A) i don't get detentions. haha.

40. What was the first state you lived in?
; brunei-muara.

41. Who was the first person to break your heart?
; ah. I don't want to point any fingers here. Let it be.

42. Current worry?
; elite worksheets and essays. :S

43. Current hate?
; this moment.

44. Favorite place to be?
; anywhere but here.

45. How did you bring in the New Year?
; it's not new year yet, just a few more weeks, and hey, the new year's arrived. :D

46. Where would you like to go?
; when? now? beach please, so i can scream all the pain out from me. (:

47. Do you own slippers?
; sadly, no. tis true. haha.

48. What shirt are you wearing?
; the white one.

49. Favorite color(s)?
; black, white and blue.

50. Would you be a pirate?
; if i'd be like jack sparrow, then feasty. sure. haha.

51. What song do you want played at your funeral?
; i'm not dead yet why should there be a funeral now? haha.

52. Are you gay?
; as in happy? sadly no. haha.

53. Do you sing in the shower?
; sometimes when no one is in the house, me alone.

54. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
; hmm. nothing. it's more of my imagination.

55. What's in your pockets right now?
; empty.

56. Best bed sheets as a child?
; it got burnt. dad burned it. damn it.

57. Worst injury you've ever had?
; injury? surgical injury counts?

58. Who is your loudest friend?
; filsie and daia!

59. Who is your most silent friend?
; me. aha.

60. Does someone have a crush on you?
; i don't know. why don't you go be a dear and ask around?

61. Do you wish on shooting stars?
; no. cause it's silly. stars don't give you answers, they give you the beauty of the night.

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Baby,top. || 7:30 PM

Oh it's raining. It's always so cosy when the rain starts to fall. I love the atmosphere during a rainy day with the occasional rumble of thunder in the distant. I love the feel when I stand under the rain, walking all about, all by myself, thinking of things. This things makes me, Me. It may sound weird in a way, but it's true. I tend to do weird things sometimes, so weird and different from other people. *grins*

Here's today's story.

Woke up again at past six o'clock. I was planning to go to tasek today with the rest of the family (except for my brother cause he was still sleeping that time). I changed my mind and felt lazy all of a sudden. Hee. Anyways, told Dad that I didn't want to come along today, so I stayed at home instead. Watched MTV for a while when they were out already. Then went to the kitchen to get myself some breakfast. Watched more MTV and at one point, decided to read the Mayor of Casterbridge again. I stopped at chapter 32 this morning, will be reading more later. I was suppose to read three chapters per day, but the story gets exciting, so I read more chapters than I planned.

Stopped reading for an hour, decided to vacuum the floor. Banyak tu pasir ah. From Dad punya kasut tu. Ee. Soon after I finished the vacuuming, I went to have my shower. The sun was getting high up in the sky, making the house look brighter inside. I like that. Makes me see things better. Haa. After my shower, blow-dried my hair while tuning to more of MTV. I was practically dancing when the favourites are on. Haha. My hair was sort of fluffy after I blow-dried it. :S

There was a new message alert from my turbo msn, it was Elle. Pacah tu caranya bechat sama aku ah. Palau kali pakah. Haha. They were at Kiulap during that time, eating breakfast. I asked Elle not to tapau for me (cause I don't feel like eating kolo mee anymore), but alas, kana tapaukan awal sudah. Haiya. After they ate, they went to Supa Save for a little grocery shopping (*hint of sarcasm in my tone* baik~ ke kadai. inda membawa urang, but serves me right for not coming along tadi). Ah yes. I'm being sarcastic to myself here. Haha. I told Elle to get me some Australian apples cause I was craving for them all of a sudden, I wanted the fat green pears actually but they weren't in store during today (damn it!).

Went to the kitchen again to wash the dishes (karang kana marah lagi oleh my Dad for not doing the chores, hmph). After the dishes, Elle pm me again in msn, she said, "get reading with the sliding door". So I stood at the sliding door and waited for them to get back home and I saw the littlle angel sleeping under my brother's car, awwwwwwww~ she looks really adorable sleeping in that position. Yes, the little angel is our kitten, Ming Ming. Nyaman tu tidurnya tadi. Sekali datang Dad punya car, tebangun tia tarus. Cian. It started meowing.

They unloaded the groceries and I took them to the kitchen to be arranged. Meanwhile, the kitten is being fed with sausages outside. It seems to like the food better than whiskas. So kaka and Elle played with the kitten while I stood behind the sliding door watching the whole scene.
That kitten is so a d o r a b l e.

After the kitten scene, went to surf more of the internet. Edited blogs and voila, it's finished already. Hee. Checked my friendster for any updates and also checked my facebook. Talking about facebook, atu banyak the application requests ah. There were like 60 requests which I needed to accept tadi. But I chose to ignore some of 'em. Haa. Then visited my pet in facebook (yes, I have a pet in facebook, her name is Peekaboo, a bunny rabbit in Haikoo Zoo), fed it cause it was hungry (it said so), then put her to nap as she was feeling sleepy. Ah, told you I was weird. :D

Currently here. Making full use of the blog. Ha. Ha. Ha. Haha. *sarcasm in the air*

& oh. Should I write about him today? Probably not I suppose. But if he was reading this, he must have read the description I made under my blog picture at the left column. Just a thought from my endless thoughts. (:

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Baby,top. || 5:32 PM

Just got back home from Abang Maidin's house, there was a tahlil and sembahyang berjemaah tonight. So the family, including me, went to attend to the occassion. Had some updates with my cousins, from my dad's side, about life and other stuff. We get to gossip around like old times. Ah, such good times that were..

Didn't see my angah bini anywhere tadi, I only saw angah laki. Apparently, angah bini is at the hospital, doing a surgery. She slipped on the bathroom floor earlier today. We were told that angah's ankle snapped. I hope she'll be doing okay. I love my angah. (:

Okay. Now at home, so here's more of my life's dull stories for today.

Woke up at past 6 o'clock this morning and looked out at the window. The sun was still hiding below the horizon. I didn't go to tasek today as planned cause I had a stomachache and my head was strucked by a baseball bat, not literally. Haha. FYI, you should know by now on what it means. ;D

I had breakfast then when Dad got home from tasek and bought me kolo mee from Thien Thien. Then had my shower and watched hollow man 2 on cinemax. After that done, went to read more on the Mayor of Casterbridge. One-third of the novel left! Weeeee~ gonna read the rest tomorrow. I am enjoying the story plot so far.

After the endless reading on the novel, went to the kitchen to cook myself some food: fried cuttle strips with chilli padi. It turned out great and taste so good. Mmmmm.. Fried cuttles. Cuttles are squid by the way. Wait. You do know that already. Hehe.

Finished editing the blogsite just now. Man, I had to choose from a different range of templates tadi. Couldn't really make up my mind but at last, I chose this template, made by dlockheart (he's one of my favourite blogskin designers). I like the words used in this blogskin. It expresses on how I feel inside, *ehem* currently speaking. Haa. (:

So right after this, I'll be going to sleep because my eyes are getting strained due to endlessly looking at the monitor. *yawn*

good night people.

Before that, I wanna make a shout out to one of my dearest friend, who is also a sister to me, today is her 18th birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FILSIE!

& oh. I've been thinking about that person today. Hmm. Maybe I should stop myself from doing so again? But it seems hard for me. It's not easy to forget yknow. Especially to Elle, who kept on saying, 'why are you still thinking about him? It has been *counting her fingers* five months already.' Yeah, yeah. Shut up you. But she got a point though. I miss him when he's not around. Ah, stop it amal. Hmph.

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Baby,top. || 8:47 PM

Currently listening to ; H.I.M - Venus Doom.

A casual day today, just like any other day of the holiday. Do I sound cheerful to you? Ooo. Maybe I am. Or, maybe I'm not. Haha. Anyway, the day started when I woke up from my realm of dreams. I rubbed my eyes with my fingers, watched the sunlight pouring inside through the window, looked at my phone for the time. "It's seven. Time to get up."

I straightened my messy hair and got off from my bed. Walking slowly downstairs to my mother's bedroom, she was still at home, getting ready to go to work. Elle and Dad went out already, to Tasek. I didn't come along, felt tired plus, lazy. Hehe. Switched on the television and watched the Asian Food Channel for a bit, then changed to HBO and watched Hexed. Stupid story about a cold-blooded killer. Then changed the channel to MTV! & watched music videos. Haha. Macam nada kraja kan di buat lagi. After that, Elle and Dad got back home from Tasek, I went to have my shower. Hah, I know, so late of me to have my shower.

After the shower, cook myself some breakfast, fried bananas, which turned out good than I had expected. However, I let kaka ate the rest of it. Manis the pisang. Breakfast, done. Watched more of the Asian Food Channel for a while, on Saturday Cooks and Christmas Cooks. Changed the channel to the music channel, and began reading the Mayor of Casterbridge. Hmm. Interesting plot of the story so far. Now, I'm currently reading the 20th chapter. 25 more chapters to go! :D

In the afternoon, stopped reading for a while and watched Nigella's Feast and Surreal Gourmet. Yes I know, more cooking programs. Then suddenly, kaka said, "Lai, get ready. Dad's taking us out for lunch." Oh yeah. Food time & I was really hungry. Seriously.

Down at Gadong, Batu Besurat, Dad went to the Liqua Health Center to collect his bonus for the month. Then went to Maybank, at the center of Gadong. There were no empty parkings around, so kaka drove a few rounds around the building while Dad went to the bank. We were like jobless people, going round and round and round the building, until at last, Dad was finished with his business. Dad took over the wheel once again, went passed the Mall, and we were like (with that hint of annoyance), "Sekalinya sunyi tu mall ah. Time nya ramai karang tu, kan bagi mati saja." Haha. It was sort-of deserted during that time. So yeah.

Next destination, Kiulap, Thien Thien Restaurant (yes, I am aware that it is a Chinese restaurant, but we always eat there, every now and then). Dad went to buy easi for Elle and Jill&Jill, then went to the restaurant and ordered ourselves some food. I had Laksa with no taugeh. I don't like eating my laksa with taugeh. Dad, Kaka and Elle had Chicken Rice. After finished eating food, stayed there for a while and started to talk about life. Yes. We do this frequently. The talk ended with Elle's topic. Haha. What the topic was, I'm not gonna mention it here. Kana tumbuk ku karang inda pasal-pasal. Haha.

Then went home. Watched Martin Mystery for awhile then changed the channel to Hitz.TV. Continued reading the novel. Watched Chronicle of the Wings on Animax at 5pm. After that's done, watched kitten being bathed by kaka. Aha. It tried to escape. Again. Maybe the water was too cold? Kali lah.

Ate my dinner and I am currently here, typing this blog. I'm not sleeping yet cause CSI: Miami is on! Tomorrow, will definitely be going to Tasek for a walk and to enjoy the waterfall. No, it's not what you were thinking about. I'm just gonna sit in front of the waterfall at the wood platform area or whatever it is called. Haha.

I'll be going now, I wanna watch the TV more and maybe drink some milk before I go to sleep. What? It helps me sleep peacefully. Haha. Well then, good night people. Later~





I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue.

Is it really turning blue? We'll see next year. (:

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Baby,top. || 10:10 PM

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
: Etto. I've done everything that I wanted to do. I guess there's nothing that I'd never done before.

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
: Hmm. For this year, I didn't really keep to it. But I will starting next year and that's a promise. ;D

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
: Nope, none that I could think of.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
: Nope, not yet though, not that I want them to die or anything. Hehe.

5. What countries did you visit?
: Does Brunei count?

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
: The ability to keep to my promises plus, to be totally NOT ignorant towards anyone.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
: 11.5.2007 because that was the day it all started out. First it was a casual day out, sort-of date, between two friends that altered a bit by the end of that day. (:

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
: I got promoted to Upper Six!!!!! Hehehehe. The life of a Senpai. I'm imagining all those juniors that will be bullied next year :D

9. What was your biggest failure?
: Hmm. Biggest failure in Geography papers. Godddddddddddddddddddddd.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
: all the time.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
: that necklace (yes, I still keep it) and my phone X)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
: aa. no one? haha.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
: Oh oh! I know the answer to this question, that person was ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. HAHA.

14. Where did most of your money go?
: clothing, accessories and chocolates~

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
: the dates. Haha. By dates I mean, the meeting between two people and their friends. Whatever you call it.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005 2006 2007?
: What song? Hmm. I think it would be "Because of You". Yes, that song by Ne-Yo.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you...
-happier or sadder?
: I'm in the middle of happy and sad. So, I'm not sure where I am now.

-thinner or fatter?
: definitely getting thinner. Oh God.

-richer or poorer?
: so-so.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
: that thing and that thing. What things I'm talking about? I ain't telling ;)

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
: Ignoring. Yes. Ignoring. I should not have done that. & oh. Avoiding. That too.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
: I'll be at my cousin's place celebrating my Tua's birthday :D

21. Did you fall in love in 2007?
: That was the only time I really fell in love.

22. How many one night stands?
: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I don't do those kinds of stuff sweety.

23. What was your favorite TV program?
: Asian Food Channel and Travel&Living. I know. I know. Before you say anything, I was only watching the cooking programmes. By now, you do know I love to cook right? Haha.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
: I don't hate any particular person. Just dislike them. That's all. ;D

25. What was the best book you read?
: By far it would have to be, Harry Potter. :D

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
: Hmm. This I do not know.

27. What did you want and get?
: I wanted a new phone for this year, N72. I've been waiting since last year for it. So yeah. Now, I got it. Haha.

28. What did you want and not get?
: I wanted more money but I seem to waste them away too much. Tsk. Tsk.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
: Hitman, Pirates of The Carribean: At World's End, The Golden Compass. :D

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
: school. I was given a surprise during registration, a few friends of mine sang the birthday song to me, in front of the whole class. God, that was really touching and at the same time embarrassing. Thanks guys & thank you, Qawiy. & oh. I'm 19 this year. ;)

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
: That I have known great friends all around me. :D

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
: Casual & sporty. ;D

33. What kept you sane?
: Hmm. This is a tough question. Most of the time I'd be insane not sane. I'd have to say that sweets make my day sane. Haha.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
: Johnny Depp. Haha.

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
: Haiya. I don't deal with political issues. Sure, they are sometimes entertaining if you see all the politicians debating with each other about the country's problem and stuff.

36. Who did you miss?
: It would always be, him. Yes. You know who I'm taking about.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
: Best new person? I have not one but a few, they are, the bestie Jim-Jim & of course, my other bestie, Wani. I love you guys. :D

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
: Never ignore or avoid the person who loves you, cause you might really hurt them without even knowing that you did. Although you may never notice it as they try to hide it from you.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
: 'it's a beautiful tragedy'.

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Baby,top. || 8:52 PM

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Baby,top. || 8:12 PM

3.15pm ; took actifed pill, to cure this common cold.

Lied on the sofa and watched the TV for God knows how long. Then the medicine took its effect on me an hour after the time stated. Previous state was immensely drowsy and somewhat high (y)

Felt asleep soon after that and dreams away silently, happily, like no one was there except for me. Then there was this sort-of whiny voice, calling me, "maaaaaaaaaal~ bangun jap~". "Oh lookie, it's Elle, what does she want now?" I thought. "Bagi kitten minum milk dulu" she said, and I was like, "hmmmmmm? *mumbles*" and fell back asleep. Then she went like "OI! Kajap bah." Fine, fine. I got up, staggering as I went outside and gave the kitten some milk. Then went back inside with the same drowsy feeling and fell back on the couch. Slept away~

Woke up at 7.30 and changed the channel to 715, anime time~ Watched Fate/Stay Night for a while then fell back to sleep. Medicine was still effective apparently. Then woke up again at 8.20, got up, went to the kitchen and ate my dinner kajap. At 8.40, took another actifed pill and currently here.

Current state; drowsy and somewhat high (again)

~*~

Tomorrow's Plan;
Morning - Tasek.
Do 'A View From The Bridge' worksheets.
Read The Mayor of Casterbridge.
Baby,top. || 9:01 PM

From http://www.funfunnyfacts.com ;

1. Did you know that it is impossible to lick your elbow? (I bet you're gonna do it after you read this)

2. Did you know, 85% of all Valentine's Day cards are purchased by women!

3. The average bed is home to over 6 billion dust mites. (better burn those beds)

4. Apples are more effective at keeping people awake in the morning than caffeine.

5. Mosquitoes have 47 teeth. (they even have teeth? I didn't know that)

Baby,top. || 11:19 AM

Tagging rules

1. each blogger must post these rules.
2. Each Blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and read your blog.

Eight random facts about me:
1. The name Arashi is derived from my original name.
2. I cook spicy food only.
3. I have a tendency to buy chocolate every time I'm at the supermarket.
4. Nearly all songs in my phone reminds me of someone. (:
5. I am part Chinese, sort of. My arwah great-grandmother of my father's side was a Chinese.
6. I had surgery back in 2002.
7. There's a 3-inch steel implanted inside my body. Seriously.
8. Strangers see me as a 9 year old due to my height and the way I look.

Tagged people:
8 random picks.

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Baby,top. || 10:16 PM

Guys (and girls of course), I'm hungry. HAHA. That's random. I wanna eat but I don't have any mood. Yes, I eat according to my mood, I know it ain't healthy. Not caring.

Woke up at around 6.30 tadi. Couldn't sleep well cause I was having too much coughs. Plus, somehow the bedroom had a hot atmosphere. The sun and the sky was red during the morning, lain merahnya. So I watched it changed colour from red to yellow to almost blue. Fascinating really. Should have recorded it. Anyway, I made silent movements when I got up, didn't really want to wake the girls up. After that, went downstairs and turned the tv on and watched the afc channel. Mmmmm. Food. I love watching people cook. I spent 1 to 2 hours watching it.

Had my shower after I watched the tv then got hooked up with the snakes game in my phone. Man, that game is so addicting sometimes. I got to level 15 and I'm still stuck there. Elle was disrupting my concentration when I played the game. She made this little noises which of course, made me unfocused. Haha. Then, cooked some fried rice cause I was really hungry.

Then, had a short nap after I ate my meds. Didn't really sleep well, I think the meds' effects are wearing off. I didn't feel drowsy like I was supposed to. Maybe I should eat more? No no. That's not good. I'll eventually get overdose by it. Nasty thoughts are beginning to get into my mind...

After nap time, got up and went to the kitchen to witness kitten being bathed by kaka. It started clawing when the water touched its fur. At least, it smelt nice. In the midst of bath time, I got myself some rice and fried chicken. Hungry was all I can say. Went to the living room to watch 'sehati berdansa' while eating. Kitten is being dried up by kaka at that moment. It made attempts to escape, but alas, it couldn't. It kept looking at my food, maybe it was hungry.

Finished eating and started to play with kitten, only petted it. Didn't dare to touch it fully, it might scratch the hell out of me. I've been scratched too much dulu, long long time ago. Since then I grew frightful if a cat comes near me, even if it was a tame one. So anyway, petted kitten and it looked at me with those huge, round eyes of hers. It was really cute when she just sits there, minding her own business, licking her fur tryna make it straighter perhaps. At some point, she would rub her face with her paws, one stroke at a time. Very cute. Gave her some dutch lady milk and she happily drank it away, occasionally looking up at the people around her. Wondering perhaps, why on earth these people were watching her enjoying the milk.

Watched the BET awards a few hours ago. That was some serious jiggle. Then, wanted to check on kitten's status, but apparently she went missing. She wasn't under the cars or anywhere else. I thought she might be wondering about somewhere. An hour after that, went to check if she was outside. Called out her name and I could hear her meowing somewhere near. All of a sudden she appeared from under Dad's car, all dirty and wet. She just got her bath and now she's dirty again. I think that, what had happened was, the kitten was wandering outside, as in the neighbourhood, I also think that it went to the next door neighbour's house. Maybe, just maybe, someone splashed water onto the kitten on purpose making it all wet, knowing that the kitten belonged to us. Then, the kitten got its way back home to us, all freezing. I was like, 'fhesghfgsdjgkwruilyaqgfgh'. I assumed you know what had happened here.

It's now 10.05pm. My eyes are getting strained by the monitor and I should be eating my meds after this. Should really get some peaceful sleep tonight & maybe go to Tasek tomorrow morning? Sounds like a good plan to me. (:



Note to self:
; The Mayor of Casterbridge - 33 chapters left.
; Worksheet 4 to be done tomorrow.



Missing him.

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Baby,top. || 9:23 PM

Woke up around 7 and my head was aching so much. My nose was stuffy, couldn't really breathe properly. Had my shower then ate my breakfast. In the afternoon, around one o'clock, went to the clinic for a check up because I need meds! After that, went grocery shopping for a while and bought kitchen stuff. I also bought nachos~ Yes. Must have nachos. I think I'm gonna eat it later.

Right now, I am in my 'palau' state. Just had taken my meds a few minutes ago. I feel drowsy and high. Hahahaha. Palui. High tia plang & kaka is being mental~ *mental alert!* She is starting to talk to herself again, and probably will be making a song of her own, like the way she used to. Haha.

Lalalalala~ I'm in my palau state~ I'm in my palau state~ *starts to sing nonsense things* and kaka is being mental~ She is laughing like a mental person~ Lalalalala~

Maybe I should get some sleep cause my eyes are getting tired, the meds must be taking its effect on me. So yeah. I should sleep after this. *yawn*

& oh. I miss him today, I woke up with him in my mind. Baka neh...

-Out.

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Baby,top. || 3:58 PM

I feel cranky. This flu is making me cranky. I need that medication, unfortunately it's all gone. Damn it. I hate it when I have a flu. Where's the medicine when you need 'em? Panadols don't do any good. They don't make my flu better. So in other words, PANADOLS ARE USELESS. Motherfucking useless. Without those medication I shan't be able to go sleep peacefully tonight. God, why?? Why must I have this stupid flu? I've been sneezing dari tadi. I hate sneezing for so many times. Now I'm craving to eat junk food. I need my junk food! *goes all emo* HAHAHAHA.

My ears are hurting me. Macam bangal rasanya. Lurus kah tu spellingnya ah? Peduli eh. Lapar ku ni. I'm really hungry right now. Tapi nada ku mood kan makan ah. I'm craving for chocolate muffins, not just any chocolate muffins but those really good ones, the really good chocolate muffins. I'm also craving for chocolate cake. Sweet, savouring chocolate cake. I want one. I want nachos also. Banyak jua yang ku cravingkan ani. Haha.

I've been sleeping all day today. When I got home from Tasek and took my shower, I ate the meds. Then, I slept until around 2.30. After I woke up, went to the kitchen and made myself some nutella pancakes. Which is nyaman, I didn't expect that. Haha. Then, I went to sleep again for the second time cause the meds were still effective on me, plus I felt really drowsy. So I slept until 5.30. Now I'm up and currently my stomach is grumbling. It says "feed me! feed me!". Hush stomach, I'll feed you soon.

Bah eh. Out ku dulu. I need to eat.

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Baby,top. || 6:27 PM

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Baby,top. || 6:13 PM

Just got back home after a long day at Gadong. Went out with Zul, Khalis, Hafiz, Elle, Wani, Syahmi and him, Qawiy. Silent agonizing hours spent, I could barely even talk, not because of having a sore throat but due to his existence, right in front of me. Pathetic yes? Tell me something I don't know.

Zul picked us up at around one-ish. Then we went to Qawiy's house to pick him up. Being in the backseat with him was excruciating, he poked me, he gave me playful punches and annoyed the hell out of me. I only reacted a little towards this behaviour of his, I was trying to put myself into a content state. I didn't want to go madly blushing when he was sitting beside me. I was even trying to keep my face as blank as possible. I even looked out of the window just to avoid seeing his face. What? It was hard, okay? It's not easy for me. These things made it more worse. -_-

Anyways, enough about that for a while. So we arrived at Gadong, went to Cineplex to buy tickets to watch The Golden Compass (great movie by the way. Love the war part between the gobblers, witches, demons, and gyptians but hmm, disappointing ending?). Then met up with the others and of course, met up with my bestie, Wani. Hehe. XD

After the little encounter with Wani, we went to the book store, Best Eastern (one of my favourite stores in the Mall). Browsed through good novels, manga and of course, horror story books (the best!). On my book list, I'll be purchasing the whole set of Harry Potter books (the black covers though cause the illustrations are cool~ *thumbs up*), cook books (that's a must have, I'll be wanting to try new recipes now and then), the bedroom book (renovated bedrooms, I'll be renovating a new bedroom of my own next year) and maybe some romantic novels? Maybe. Hehe (:

After the movies, went to the food court to rest for a bit. Man, my back was so sore sitting on that cinema chair for hours. Then, we went to the CD store on the 1st floor. Browsed through the anime section but didn't find what I was looking for: Rave II. After that, we went to Dee Jay to seek new games released. Have yet to buy Guitar Hero and of course some other games as well.

I am officially an anime freak. Haha. Believe me, I watched lots of anime. :D

Finished doing my business at the CD stores and we hung out for a while and met up with Nina&Kyle.Talked for a while about things with her, then continued on with what I was doing from the first place and that is: standing quietly, looking at people around me or even start to stare blankly at one spot. He seemed to be disappearing every now and then, by "he" you know who I'm talking about. When he started to go missing, I'll be all upset. A stupid thing to do actually. I mean, why would I be doing things like that? Then, I'd be all moody. I wouldn't be giving people much reaction when they start to poke me or punch me. I'd be looking at all directions to see whether he was there or not and he wasn't. I even got jealous when he started to... Oh. Never mind. I don't want to talk about it anymore.



Things are - c o m p l i c a t e d - with me.



Out-

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Baby,top. || 9:13 PM

It's raining heavily now. The lightning scares me a bit, but at the same time, I'm drawn to it, I don't know why. Everytime it rains, all those sweet memories came rushing back to greet me.

I remembered the first time, back in April, it was raining so heavily at school and I stayed back during that day with my sister.
I sat down at the canteen area, enjoying the raining scene. Then he came by. He sat next to me, asking me if I was okay. Well of course I was, only felt a bit tired from all the school work. He leaned over so he could see my face, I didn't expect him to do that. I still remembered that I was blushing at that time and I was trying to avoid his gaze. Man, that was hard for me to do and it still is.

I felt like it all just happened yesterday. Ah, those memories somehow made me even more depressed. I couldn't help myself to stop to what I was thinking, it's as if my mind has a mind of its own. Hmm. Freaky thought. -_-

I admit, I do miss him all the time & I know he would probably be reading this, but who gives a damn about it? You know I don't. I'm free to say anything I want. I have my rights you know. Wait, what am I talking about again? God! This is getting complicated.

*emo alert!*
*rofl*

Bah, I'm out- XD

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Baby,top. || 6:32 PM

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Baby,top. || 5:13 PM

Damn kids. fshfushhfgsgruwe. They took our kitten just now. God. Talk about thieving.
I can't believe the kids these days. They like to take what's not theirs. Sheesh.

Wanna know how it all happened? We were in the living room, then there was this huge knock on the door. Talk about rude knocks. This kid was selling fish all over the neighbourhood. After that, when we were gonna go outside to check on the kitten, she went missing. We went around the house, under the cars, inside boots to search for her. We called her name but she didn't appear, usually she would.

Then Dad went across the roundabout at the kid's house. You know what? The kid took it! God. Does he even know that when you take someone's property that doesn't even belong to you, it is considered thieving? & you know what? We felt like wanting to punish this kid. But hey, we don't go do things like that.

When Dad brought her home, she was sitting so still, like traumatized or something. Poor kitty.

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Baby,top. || 3:41 PM

Woke up early today, the sun was already rising. Went to Tasek for a jog, but in my case, a walk. Haha. I can't run, if I start running, it would look really funny, like I haven't been running for ages. Haha. Seriously, it's true. So anyway, after the usual walks I've made, I went standing near the waterfall, at the bridge, waiting for Mom to finish with her tai-chi. I saw lots of people running by me. I even met my cousin and you know what? I couldn't really recognize her in the beginning, my mind was thinking, "who the hell is this person?" dah tu, baru tia ingat. Haha. Silly me. What? I've got too many cousins bah, it's not like I can memorize everybody's face. Nama pun sometimes kelupahan. Haha. This is just me people, I tend to forget who's who. XD

After Mom finished with her tai-chi and Elle finished with her jog, we went to the pondok where my Dad was sitting at, he's with another cousin, Tua Halbi. :D
So, salam with Tua Laki and Tua Bini, then sat next to Elle, we started to chat the time away. Haha.

Be right back, kan jamur baju jap.

***

Back. So anyway, after tasek, we went to serusop for breakfast, I had roti kosong and pepsi. Haha. Cause I don't really have the mood to eat. Then went to the bank to see whether my $$$ is in already. You know what? It's in! Weeeeee~ Took out ten bucks to buy food for the kitten and some junk food. XD
After that, got home and here I am~ Hmm. Apparently, the kitten likes dutch lady milk. Abis tadi lehnya. Cute. Haha. :D

So now, I'll be going, got something to do. Happy hols people~

Before that, here's a list of things that I should be doing during the holidays:
1. Read the Mayor of Casterbridge during the holidays and the other thick novel, the one Ms Carol wants us to read, yeah, that one, I don't have it yet. Ick. -_-'

2. 7 worksheets for A View From The Bridge.

3. 2 essays, namely, 'Eddie, the tragic hero' and 'Ozymandias'. I should be finishing those A.S.A.P.

4. Summarize all the geography notes into my A5 size book. :D

5. Hang out with my friends. That's a must. XD

6. Go out shopping for next year's school term, lots of stationaries to be bought. XD

7. & finally, tell him the truth about how I feel? (:





And I'm out-

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Baby,top. || 10:23 AM

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Baby,top. || 3:17 PM

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Baby,top. || 2:56 PM

HAPPY BELATED 19th BIRTHDAY TO NEENA&HAFIZ!

I won't be able to blog through the computer, the damn mouse isn't working. So, I'll be blogging using my trustworthy handphone. Haha.

Yesterday, went out to Gadong, a last minute planning. Watched Hitman~ 47 is so hot, he's such an awesome assassin. Haha. Love the way he kills his preys. XD

Currently at home, watching KP. Really bored now. Amy wanted to bring us to the dentist today, however, an appointment should be made first. So she's going down to Muara Clinic to make an appointment. Anyway, I have a craving for Nachos and cookies&cream ice cream and zinger burger and lamb chop and butter prawn... (the list goes on~)

Alright, gotta go now. Out-

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Baby,top. || 10:44 AM

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Baby,top. || 9:33 PM

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Baby,top. || 3:32 PM

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Baby,top. || 4:45 PM

Currently listening to; I'm So Sick - Flyleaf.

Here's a conversation between me and a friend:

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
Oh yeah. Do you think Qawiy inda baca blog mu? xp

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
of course. HAHAHA. wait, why are you asking me that...? *curious*

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
haha actually ia baca Amal xD

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
WHAT?????????????????????

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
are you bluffing me or something????????????

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
Haha bwoh

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
seriously. ia baca deh?

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
bnr x ah xD

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
tipu ko.

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
Auuuu xD

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
Nda cya ya udh. Ehe.

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
should make it into a private blog. -_-'''

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
dpt kn?

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
dpt~ wa hahah.

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
wait... how did you know ia baca? he told you or something?

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
Au lh. Haha

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
what did he say..? -_-

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
Ku bca blog c Amal *senyum* atu ja. Aha

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
:| *bangs head on the keyboard repeatedly*

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
haha bth dh x ah xp

Lets end it ; Elle's says:
Haha

[blogging] `237 ;_paranoia in my head. says:
palui kaliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

~*~

So, this whole time, he has been reading my blog? My heart starts to race again & I thought he will never EVER know the truth. I thought wrongly. Damn it. Yknow what, I'm not gonna make this blog private. At least now, he knows about it. (damn~)

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Baby,top. || 4:10 PM

Just something I found in Friendster. (:

LADIES: this will make you tear up
GUYS : read it. all of it!

1. Touch her WAIST.
2. TALK to her.
3. Share SECRETS.
4. Give HER your jacket.
5. Kiss her SLOWLY.

Are you remembering this?

6. HUG her.
7. HOLD her.
8. LAUGH with her.
9. Invite HER somewhere.
10. Let her be WITH you when you're with your friends.

Keep reading....

11. SMILE with her.
12. Take PICTURES with her.
13. Pull her onto your LAP.
14. When she says she loves you more, DENY IT. Fight back.
15. When her FRIENDS say i love her more than you, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and SAY "i love you" when you see her.
17. Kiss her UNEXPECTEDLY.
18. HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST.
19. Tell her shes BEAUTIFUL.
20. TELL her the way you feel about her.

Oh, one last thing, you need to show her that you MEAN IT.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a GENTLEMAN.
22. Tell her she means everything to you, but MEAN it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it
means she doesn't want to talk about it- so just HUG her.
24. Make her FEEL loved
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know.

We may deny it but we actually like and kinda want you to tickle us.

26. Don't lie to HER.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work (or school), and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

Are you still reading this? You better be. It's important.

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Don't EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes up set, comfort her.

Remember all these things when you are gonna be with her next time.

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart. Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible.

Make sure she knows that she's loved.

41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.

You' ll never know when she needs just a little more love.

Labels: love life, random

Baby,top. || 2:28 PM

Just got freaked out by a small kitty. How embarrassing is that? Will post pictures of the kitten once I find it tomorrow. Should be going to sleep now, as I am suppose to go to Shahbandar Hill tomorrow for a hike..? I can't really climb hills though, my asthma would get more worse if I push myself too much. It's 10.05pm. Gotta really go to sleep now though. Maybe, I'll spend a little bit more time on this blog.

Currently in a state of confusion. I really should stop thinking about it. Besides, it doesn't do me any good if I continue with this behaviour. Maybe I'll make a fresh start starting next year. Nah~ That won't happen. I always wanted to change myself but, I'm still me. The same old me. The in-denial me. The stubborn me. The selfish me. The me whom everybody seems to know already, even the new friends (:

However, there are some things that many people do not know about me. *mischievous smile*

Labels: random

Baby,top. || 8:43 PM

A friend of mine had asked me an unexpected question today. She said, "are you still friends with him?", I replied that we are still friends. The term "friends" in this case seems so... Different to me. If you are friends with someone, you get to really talk right? I mean really talk. But, it never was the same for me. Sure, we did do some talking, but it usually ends shortly after that. He'd be the one who'd start the conversation. Of course, I did that too sometimes. Somehow, I wish we could sit down together and start to really talk, without even the slightest hesitation, without that feeling of awkward-ness, without me even blushing the whole time.. (damn it!) I don't think that'll ever happen though.

I also told her that I still like him, really like him alot. To this point, she was sort of curious and maybe confused all together on how the whole thing of that relationship ever started, on how I ended up being with him. It had never crossed my mind before that someone would ask me this. It seemed hard for me to reply her at first, cause I don't even know what the answer was. He was, scratch that, IS mostly annoying the whole time we spent together, but he does have the sweetest charm sometimes (in my opinion that is). Perhaps, we had some sort of chemistry between us back then until we ended up being together in the end.

& I love those moments with him. He was the very first guy who had made me really happy (the others were just a pain in the ass), he showed me that there are more to life than what we really see, he actually loved me for who I really am and not for who I wasn't, and that he really cared. & I still love him up till now (although we're not together anymore), I don't even know why..

I don't mind saying these stuff because he wouldn't be reading my blog, so I need not worry & he doesn't even have to know the truth. ;)

So that's my love life, which is somewhat complicated. Felt relieved when I let out these problems I faced from my chest & the sun seems so beautiful... *currently watching the sunset* (the sun? Isn't that out of the whole love topic..?)

-out.

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Baby,top. || 5:12 PM

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